Nikki Bella Was Raped Twice in High School

From Mark Gray of WonderWall.com

Nikki Bella has revealed that she was raped twice while in high school.

In her new memoir, Incomparable, written with her twin sister, Brie Bella, Nikki said she was first violated when she was 15 years old.


"My virginity was stolen from me, without my consent," she wrote, according to excerpts obtained by Us Weekly. "I was raped, by a guy I thought was a friend, while I was passed out at a party. I'd had too many beers, and maybe some shots of hard alcohol, and I only woke up because my stomach hurt — I came to, and this guy was both on top of me and inside of me. I pushed him off and ran out of the room — he followed me down the hall and asked me if this meant we were now boyfriend/ girlfriend."

A year later, she was allegedly drugged and taken advantage of by a college-aged man.

"There is the horrible offense in the moment, and then the shame and blame that follow, and feel almost worse than the original pain," she writes, according to People magazine. "When something like this happens to you, you understand the blame-the-victim mentality, how easy it is to feel shame rather than anger, how easy it is to feel like you could have stopped it yourself."

Rather than report what had happened,the Total Bellas star told no one.

"And keeping that a secret and blaming myself, I started to lose my confidence," she wrote. "I started to disrespect myself. And then the relationships I got into at a young age, I let other people disrespect me and felt like, that's okay, this is what I deserved."


Nikki notes that therapy helped, but the #MeTooMovement ultimately let her know it was okay to speak up.

"I feel like, if I'm having these younger women look up to me, maybe I can help them and have them not hold onto this as long as I did," she wrote. "It wasn't until I was 28 and in a relationship where someone started to teach me how to respect myself. That's how long I held on to things and felt I had no boundaries."