Back from the Dead

Amulet1 wrote:Sunday afternoon my wife and I were heading over to my sisters, we got about a mile from home when I got some chest pains. I pulled over so my wife could take over driving so she took me to the ER. They got me back into a room in the er fairly quickly after collapsing. I remember how much pain I was in. I remember looking at my wife and she was balling. I then told he I loved her and said I dont want to die. They gave me two rounds of morphine to help the pain which didnt help. I was wheeled upstairs to the cathe lab. I remember getting on table ad they started the cathe procedure. It didnt feel great. They said I wasnt relaxed enough. This is last I remember. I was told I died on the table and they were able to shock my heart back.  I got out of hospital yesterday and  I feel pretty good. Some of this is very hard to talk about but I was told it helps if I write about it. This makes my forth heart attack and 5th stent. The artery was the main artery going into the heart which they call "The Widow Maker" I was told that I was lucky that it happened where it did because if I was at home or someplace else I would be gone.  I know my wife and family were terrified.

My sister who told me that I had died did ask if I saw a light or anything like that I told her I couldnt remember.  I am strting to remember bits and pieces and it does make me very greatful to still be here.

Joshua 1, NIV wrote:Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Amulet1 wrote:It has been two weeks since my heart attack.. I have found out it was "The Widow Maker". I was told I am a survivor and a miracle. I dont really think of myself either one. This is or was my forth heart attack and by fare the worse one.  To be honest I am extremely scared. Knowing that I actually died really has me messed up . I can just be sitting watching tv and I break down crying.  From what I have read this is normal for someone who has gone through what I have. I think it might also be wise to see a shrink. I have reopened a blog and it does somewhat help to put down what I am thinking.  This is going to be a long road and I am not ready to die just yet.